I miss korea Seoul much

I miss...
Eating delicious Korean food
Eating supper and skipping breakfast
The cold wind
The cooling weather
The autumn leaves
The sweatless and oil-less face, body and hair
Singing anytime and anywhere
Walking down the streets
Feeling of freedom and stressless
The cute bell guy who loves pizza too
Shopping till I drop
Speaking lousy korean to Koreans
Getting lost and still find a way
Nice people who gave me directions
Nice restaurant owners who are so generous
Putting eye make up and still have it perfect at the end of the day
Feeling and actually looking pretty. Ahha
Spotting cute guys along the way
The beautiful scenery
Clean toilets everywhere

Seoul much more that I miss about Seoul.

Fly me back.

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It's almost there but not there yet
I'm so near yet so far away
I hate this feeling

I wish time could just pass faster
I'm such an impatient human being on earth
But I'm not alone

Looking forward to the dream I always had
The place I always wanted to be at

Mabel you are almost there
Don't give up
Keep going on and I will really be there
You deserve to feel excitement
You deserve to throw away negativity
You deserve it

Countdown.

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Yawns.
I'm getting sleepy

Time flies and it's already Monday
Didn't really felt the long weekend
Kinda sad but it's ok
Got used to it already

Anyway life is going to end soon
And a new beginning awaits

Looking forward to the new life
Looking forward to the new me

Exciting yet worrisome

I hate myself for being so calm

I can't remember when it started
But I always make myself have balanced feelings

In a way, I won't be too sad
Or too happy

Maybe I'm scared of disappointments
Thus I'm unable to fully enjoy myself
Good or bad?
I dont know

I can't seem to trust happiness
Cos sadness feels more real and honest

Life as we know
Will come to an end

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Yawns.
I'm getting sleepy

Time flies and it's already Monday
Didn't really felt the long weekend
Kinda sad but it's ok
Got used to it already

Anyway life is going to end soon
And a new beginning awaits

Looking forward to the new life
Looking forward to the new me

Exciting yet worrisome

I hate myself for being so calm

I can't remember when it started
But I always make myself have balanced feelings

In a way, I won't be too sad
Or too happy

Maybe I'm scared of disappointments
Thus I'm unable to fully enjoy myself
Good or bad?
I dont know

I can't seem to trust happiness
Cos sadness feels more real and honest

Life as we know
Will come to an end

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I have always wanted freedom
Always wanted by my life
Always wanted to get out of this hell
Always wanted a light

Now

When I finally got what I wanted

I'm scared
I'm afraid to take it
I'm afraid to embrace this

Why oh why

Why am I so contradicting

I need help

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I have always wanted freedom
Always wanted by my life
Always wanted to get out of this hell
Always wanted a light

Now

When I finally got what I wanted

I'm scared
I'm afraid to take it
I'm afraid to embrace this

Why oh why

Why am I so contradicting

I need help

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So addictive and so close to the heart
Love love love this song

An outing which i dont look forward to
Sometimes
What is the point of doing something which you dont look forward to?
I dont see the fruit of my labour
I cant even imagine it in my dream

I feel so empty
I dont feel passion
I dont feel motivated
I dont feel alive

Disappoinments just fills everything up

Expections comes with disappointments

This experience doesnt live up to the legend at all.

Im just a suffering prisoner who's put in this jail that i cant seem to break out. I see the key but i cant find the hole.

Im just a married person who have no rights in the marriage. Divorce keeps poping up but i cant do it. The process is so long and it feels weird to leave. You get my point? Sigh

Sometimes i dont know why im not the person i used to be anymore. Why am i suffering and taking things to myself? Why am i no longer shuang kuai and decisive? This is not me.

The reality of the world forced me to become what i am now. I can no longer take flight like a bird. I have to think of consequences and more consequences everyday.

I think and think

Sometimes

I miss that that that

When positivity runs out
When encouragement runs low
When motivations go away
When light shines no where
When my life ends

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Thank you for the wonderful quote.
...Scold me and i will not like you
Encourage me and i will not forget you...

What a sad culture of encouragment we have in this society

Everyone only knows how to discriminate
Everyone only knows how to stick the word standard on the mouth

If there is really standard, then everyone wont be working like slaves

No offence but i have a family here with me and i believe that they are more important than this "career" that im kinda building. This freaking tall building is lacking of funds and approvals man.

Sometimes

Positive mindset was what i came with

Now it only gets more negative as days pass

The only motivation i have now is 16 oct! JYJ never fails to perk my life up.

Stay strong baby! Time is coming! Search for light, see the light

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I saw light just now
And
I felt slightly better
Kinda miss him already
Will go visit him soon

Here is the end of today
And the begining of tmr

As much as i hate tmr,
I have to go through it to reach the next day

This seems like a endless loop
If i were a racer
Im at loop 60/120.
Just a little patience and it will be over soon

Was supposed to continue with the race however i decided to move on to the next race. Life is not about winning every race. Its about surviving every race.

Sometimes i feel really motivated
Sometimes i feel like dying

My complicated thoughts dont seem to go away

Its true
I cant work in a place where i cant see tmr.
How bad can this get?

I really wonder if its me or the job.

Light, ciaos!

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You ask me to say
But
Are you there to listen?

Sometimes

The line between explaining and excuses is tooooo thin

I really have a lot to say

I really have a lot to ask

Sigh sigh sigh
Tick tock tick

I can feel monday already
Or should i say
I never stop feeling it

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